bye bye bhs

Happy graduation to my brother and cousin! This was the last graduation for the Webbers at Brentwood High School. and goodness gracious has that school brought us each some incredible, unique, and unforgettable memories. thanks for handling our crew bwood high. god bless go bruins.

i am sure a proud sister.. love you both:)

holla BMOTY (aka best month of the year)

it is JUNE. and i love JUNE. but lets be honest for a second lovers.. JUNE is the best month. why you might ask? actually no you probably aren't even asking you are all probably just agreeing (yes all 500,685 of you daily readers of my blog). It doesn't need any defending its just kind of a well known fact that people like JUNE. am i right? before you respond.. let me give you a few of my personal reasons for adulating this gorgeous month.

a. june=summer. may is kinda borderline but once you hit june u know its all about the swim suits and the barbcues and the sunglasses and the summer flings and the late night star gazing and the sonic runs and sunburns and short shorts and dance parties and windows down and porsche drives and (every thirteen yrs) the cicadas (which by the way don't even ruin my month at all.. i kinda love the sweet chirping of the million cicadas.. i feel like it compares in smoothness to the constant crash of cali waves..reaching i know but come on its only every thirteen years we gotta find a way to love it) and well when its summer life is good.. people are happy so june=summer=happy.

b. june=great birthday month. okay maybe im a little bit partial. i do share a birthday on the ides of this great month. but seriously lets talk about this.. ever heard of Heidi Klum, Ice Cube, Anne Frank, Sasha Obama, Michael J Fox, Kayne West, Prince, Marilyn Monroe....yep all june birthdays. thasswassup yall.

c. june=flag day. yes maybe a forgotten holiday, but a holiday none the less. and a great one to surprise the family with....nothing better than an unexpected holiday being celebrated. GO FLAG DAY.

d. june=vacations. for you.. not for me this year.. but for you probably it means vacations. and i begrudge you all for it (ah to be a student again).

e. june=half way thru the year. what a great time to assess whats gone on the past 6 months and to anticipate whats next in the year.

well there you have it summer lovers. case closed..its a great month. may it linger.

love.

b

oh byu

wish i had a dime for everytime i had this conversation.

new guy: so are you done with school? where did you go?

me: ya, I went to BYU

new guy: what? four years at BYU and you aren't married????

me: yep. I must be crazy huh?

hahah gotta love it.

happy monday

months ago i racked my brain for a fresh, new, different and slightly challenging new years resolution. my notional response to this seeking landed me on the brilliant idea to write each day something that i was grateful for. yearning to actually check a mark on this new years resolution at the closing of 2011 (and knowing my irregular sleep pattern when a party or boy or phone call pops up) i settled to commit to 300 days of "i am grateful fors" out of the 365 in the year.

i am getting close to day 150 now. can i tell you that it is truly incredible how many wonders there are to be grateful for when you become cognitively aware of them. half way into my goal and i have not yet had a repeat. i have not even had a night where my mind is hesitant to find anything to fill that empty page. sure there have been bad days..days where i want to be mad or sad or just plain give up...but when i take a moment to just think or remember or open my mind up a little bit more with pen in hand, i have found that even in the worst of moods we can find reason to feel blessed.

so there you have it. i can't believe its

may already. but i am grateful to say that it has been an incredible year. partly because of the circumstances that have occurred in my life lately, but also because i have been able to be more aware this year of what I have been blessed with. so lovers and friends.. tonight i am grateful for power of writing. and its way of bringing us to a remembrance.

peace to my neice in greece. love you all.

b.

(an actually entry in my journal "i am grateful for naps...." and these boys do it well!)

(also grateful for this girl.. who couldn't love her??)

(grateful clay has a cute chin-not a real journal entry)

(grateful for these girls too.. they got me thru 13.1 miles..must be true friends:)

just sayin..

so the wonderful part about being a single working girl at my age is that within only a few months span you can run off (always on a whim) to the hills of NC, the mountains of Utah, the streets of NYC, nashville shopping trip with bff's from idaho, back to Utah if necessary (although hindsight proves reruns might be considered a waste), the beaches in florida, the mall of america in Minneapolis, a braves game in Atlanta, back to minneapolis and oh yah insert a few dance clubs and music shows in nashvegas. so please... friends. brothers. mothers. fathers. sisters. cousins. aunts. uncles. boys that live at my house that are not related to me. ward members. random men that pop in and out of my life. bulldogs. teachers. trainers. macy and spike kissong. and all others that pass thru my day and may be subject to a moment of the brooke whine.. remind me of my wonderful amazing life that will only be experienced at this time in my life.. and then give me a big kick in the pants. and we can go back to talking about the weather or something. loves to all.

love this song.

comeon comeon. you have got to move on.

this is not the you i know.

this isn't real. its just all you can feel.

its the way that feelings go.

so whether or not its right or wrong

you'll do what you will do.

when the cloud in the skies.

starts to pour and your life

is just a storm you're braving.

well don't tell youself.

you can't lean on someone else.

cause we all need saving sometimes.

say what you will.

but the time that we fill.

while we are on this earth.

should not be alone.

we are meant to be known.

you make me what i'm worth.

but i cant keep you from yourself

you'll do what you will do.

when the cloud in the skies.

starts to pour and your life

is just a storm you're braving.

well don't tell youself.

you can't lean on someone else.

cause we all need saving sometimes.

i dont know why it has to be this way

and i dont know the cure.

but please believe that someone else has felt this way before.

when the cloud in the skies.

starts to pour and your life

is just a storm you're braving.

well don't tell youself.

you can't lean on someone else.

cause we all need saving sometimes.

just wonderin?

how many times does it take. to get it right.

sometimes i need a good reminder. actually not sometimes...most times..

therefore my son (or daughter:), see that ye are merciful unto your brethren, deal justly, judge righteously and do good continually. and if you do all these things then ya shall recieve your reward. yea ye shall have mercy restored unto you again. ye shall have justice restored unto you again. ye shall have a righteous judgement restored unto you again. and ye shall have good rewarded unto you again.

alma 41:14

i found a new love.

just finished decorating my room. and loved every second of it.

tonights top ten.

Friends, romans, and countrymen here we go... top ten reasons why i am grateful for today....

10. i woke up to a room i had forgotten i had just decorated. and even though i wanted to crawl back in bed and admire the beautiful new lamps and grey painted walls... i actually got off my rear and did work.

9. this was my view on the way to work. still amazed at the beauty in the back woods of tn.

8. i got a text i liked. oh how the little things matter.

7. a nap snuck its way into my day. might have been only ten minutes. but this girl will take it how she can get it.

6. the women in our ward put together an incredible activity. from the table cloths to the flowers to the food to the company to the lessons to the spirit.. it was all there, all beautiful, and all amazing. so so grateful for their thought and hard work that was put into that activity.

5. my life changed drastically with one incredible purchase...guesses anyone?????

yes mam. i am now back in the iphone world. and it is a wonderful luxury to now actually see letters when i am texting or emailing.

4. my donkus got whooped at work. so im hoping my donkus is in better shape now.

3. while walking into the dollar general in tullahoma, tn i graced the presence of an older lady who was singing at the top of her lungs "how far is heaven.. when can i gooooooo oo oooo. to see my dadddy!!!"

2. fiery and obedient. realized my love for the combination of those two words.

1. and finally the most important reason why I am grateful for today. 24 years ago my beautiful, kind, amazing, intelligent (went to #1 accounting program in the nation) and sweet twin was born. and 6 years ago i got to meet my twin and have felt so grateful ever since. we've endured many heartbreaks, breakdowns, disappointments, frustrations all together. but have experienced even more joys, laughter, hopes, and dreams together. i have never laughed harder. i have never learned more. i have never traveled so much. i have never sung harder. i have never been more hyper.. than with my jewels! happy birthday JUJU! the birthday will begin this weekend when you get back to where you belong.. NASHVILLE, TENNESSEE:)

so yes. today was a good day. so much to be grateful for:)

im back.

ladies and gentleman. after much nagging or rather lovingly persistent grief from a dear friend of mine *who will not be named tho her name might oddly enough rhyme with macie kissong* i am back to the blogging world. and ready to talk about the wonderful adventures that have swept through the beginning months of this incredible year..

2011 began with a story never to be forgotten. and it seems as tho the year continues with memories that mimic those first strokes of midnight... dont know the midnight story? i'll give you a few hints. it might have involved this guy.....

and well yes these as well...

and in case you were wondering. i was the victim in the midnight crime. never saw it coming. dont know his name. kind of trying to forget it. lets move on....

now normally january is a bleak and bland and never-ending month.. correct? turns out jan 2011 wasn't gonna settle for bleak this year. it began with a ski trip in the beautiful rolling hills (emphasis on hills) of north carolina. tho i nearly sacrificed my life getting to the top of the nc hill it was all worth it. mostly because there was a hot tub and i got to witness my hair frozen in a who-ville like do.. but the skiing, ping pong, late night chats/raps, old school flings, and dance parties were a major bonus as well. ah nothing better than a cabin trip with hilarious people.

but the months adventures didn't end there. the weeks following brought a chance to be a wedding planner, a birthDAY celebration for my beautiful and best hair cousin Jacqueline (which involved a makeover-getting hit on by old men and gay men-and being stranded downtown only to be saved by the uncle/father of the year david critchlow), and the beginning of the best nights of the weeks. MONDAYS. and not just because i love my job so much..but because televisions finest show comes on that night (the bachelor of course) and it is the perfect excuse to be with my amazing friends, eat ridiculously unhealthy food, criticize how others date, and complain about the love or lack thereof in our own lives. ah how i crave mondays now.

as january ended i made a visit to see my dear old friend, Utah. and boy is this friend loyal. i would love to disclose all the juicy details. but i will spare you from reading a novel and instead just say that it was good. surprisingly good. and maybe i will go back. ok ya i already got a plane ticket im going back. details to come lovers.

and finally the glorious months of jan and feb ended with an unforgettable trip to the land where all my dreams come true. new york city baby. let me paint you a picture. ceo brother from dc takes a bus to the big apple. gorgeous blonde boards a train in Connecticut and ends up in times square. high school senior throws the school books out and books a last minute trip to the city. mr wild wild west hops on a plane to a place hes never been before. and well i just happened to be so lucky as to meet all those beautiful characters there. chinatown, little italy, momma mia, times square, wall street, magnolia bakery, had never seen so much action in a space of just over 24 hours.

so i guess i can say 2011 has treated me well. i am one lucky and happy girl. i cannot wait to see what adventures will surprise me in march:) lessss go!

im thankful for that.

tg 2010 you've been good to me. there's nothing better than having the house full of family, the countertops filled with yummy homemade dishes and to make it even better... the sound of my older bro playing the guitar in the living room..oh and did i mention i have a sister to shop with this year too? ahhh its a good holiday. ive got a lot to be thankful for. so instead of listing it all im just gonna say im thankful for that. its been a good year. happy holidays my loves.

-B

orange and blue look good on you.

Lets just talk about how much i love these two people in the pic with me. lets just talk about how no matter where i go i have the time of my life when im with my twin. and lets just talk about how everytime i make my way to boise it either ends or begins in tears.

so lets just mention some highlights of the nov 2010 boise trip. dress up. new changes. slumber parties. tjmaxx. dressing for 20 degree weather when it was actually 75 degrees. cheering on my favorite broncos. cafe rio. walking thru the boise market. pretending i was a wilson. target and christmas shopping before thanksgiving. candy like old times. dancing in the car. pictures. wishing we were in kelli's shoes. and tears to lady gaga's poker face. No matter how bad a day or a week or a month can get... it can always be cured with a trip to see my bestie. So dear Tennessee Titans.. for the sake of me and my twin jewels.. please draft kellen moore. he'd beat vince any day. and lets be honest its about time two best friends get to live in the same state again. mwah.

hallofreakinween

spotted. best day of the year. wait a second.. back it up.. best month of the year. as october comes to a close lets take a minute to reminisce on the highlights and lowlights of this classic and historical hallofreakinween.

h-lights

10.trunk or treat. saw a girl dressed in a cupcake outfit. way to begin the month. totally sold.

9.first holiday my cute little condo has seen. no longer do my neighbors think im the freaky cat lady (i dont even have cats im just a loser) im now the halloween girl. u best be believin i had myself a doorstep scene with a homemade wreath scary witches and light up pumpkins. so maybe it is nov 3 and they are still out there. don't judge just love.

8.had men chasing me with chainsaws at a haunted house. can life get better? oh yes it can...when you along with ur cuz get hit on by ghosts in that same haunted house. and hang out with them later and marry them. all true minus the post haunted house rendezvous and marriage.

7.saw a scary movie that still has me up at night. lets just say my toes are always under the covers. its fine tho me and my demon are tight.

6.got to see some sick brentwood football games and both brothers and my sis in law this month. it was great, i now have page long christmas lists from them all. ud think i was a millionaire. little do they know i dont have a job im just thousands of dollars in debt. jk.

5.got a spontaneous arrival visit from my gfizzleville friends. whats better than getting a five day visit when your expecting a three day stay. loved every second. dets to be made in the next few highlights.

4.dressed up as ms clause and walked around all night saying "naughty is the new good". during what other month could i get away with that? oh and danced with a chicken and mad scientist and 10 foot tall man and popeye. love my life.

3.prepared rat meat, witch fingers, ghost mashed potatoes, and kitty liter dessert for sunday

dinner. my men dressed in costume #3, and i got to wear a skeleton apron. u didn't believe me.. but seriously this is the best month.

2.watched men run around in a suit that is yet-to-be-determined-what-it-is and a gorilla outfit.

1.and finally, i spent the whole weekend dancing instead of sleeping. who needs shut-eye when there's good music goin on somewhere. I love this month. hallofreakinween you never fail me.

lowlights.

1. its over. 11 months till the party begins again.

When you try your best but you dont succeed.

when you get what you want but not what you need.

when you feel so tired but you can't sleep.

stuck in reverse.

when the tears come streaming down your face.

when you lose somethingyou can't replace.

when you love someone but it goes to waste.

could it be worse.

lights will guide you home

and ignite your bones.

and i will try.

to fix you

window to the sky. telescope to the eye. like a stamp to a letter. i wanna know you better.

i wanna go together with you.

*jillian edwards*

im obsessed.

so maybe halloween is a month and a half away. and maybe i have no reasons and no parties, but yes i do have my place sparkling with orange, black and purple-ps love that purple is the new halloween color-already.. me in michaels and the fabric store is equal to a fat kid in the candy shop. and now I have a black scary cat adorning my mantle, a bloody skeleton resting on my table, a handmade gothic black wreath, and yes a black polka-dot-with-orange-trim table runner is in the works. I can't help it. call me crazy. but im straight up obsessed with this holiday. trick or treat.

“It is in the home that we form our attitudes, our deeply held beliefs. It is in the home that hope is fostered or destroyed. Our homes are to be more than sanctuaries; they should also be places where God’s Spirit can dwell, where the storm stops at the door, where love reigns and peace dwells.”

president hinckley.

goodbye and hello.

quick update: all my friends have left me. all the parties are over. all my men have moved away and moved on. time to be a big girl and focus on the job. goodbye and so long summer. it was a freakin good one. on a better note. its time for football games. boots boots boots. sweaters. leggings. movie nights. scarves. general conference. halloween. and hot chocolate. hmmm. glad that every ending brings an unpredictable beginning. bring it winter..oh and winter, feel free to bring me something spicy. thanks. 'preciate it. mwah.

im grateful for my faith right now. and real friends. and change. and agency. good stuff.